im guessing i should maybe write something on here… since well my tumbularity is now shocking low.

What did i do today?
i went on a road trip, 2 hours away, just to look for a suite for my formal. After i didnt find the threads in which i was looking for.. well i came home … well that is a lie. i went and watched a movie at these cinema’s, so that is why i am now home… at 9.. well its now 9:30… but i had a shower. got food and put the new clothes i brought away…. yea i brought other shit instead of the new threads.

Now i happen to currently be watching The Fast and The Furious, Tokyo Drift. why? cause its one of the best movie to be made. you fucking slow ass mother fucking, cunt shit faced horse fucker.

Now to mention how fucking hot the lead chick is.. but anyway. lets get on to the topic of what has been on my mind today.

A girl named Christina has been on my mind. last night, well.. wasent one we are going to frame on a wall of our greatest moments i our relationship. and today, i spent most of it, worrying about her. She gets me all worked up, and then she just leaves.. to sleep .. well that is what she tells me. but that was almost 24 horus ago now. im just… freakiing out about her. and im trying to stop myself. but driving home in the dark, on a freeway. doind 110 for an hour straight. it allows your mind to think. and mine was stuck on her. just stuck. it wouldnt budge. i would change the music. and nope. still the same.

I have her on my mind. and its not in the way i want her to be on it.
i love her, but she scares me sometimes, and i feel helpless most of the time around her. i just cant help her, and it fucking sucks. im meant to fix everything. in someway. and i just.. cant do nothing.

i guess ill just indulge myself in this movie, and try to let my mind take a rest, cause its eating me up inside.